583 be

 Be passing 

Consolations be

The life force 

582 who fed the chickens

Who fed the chickens

Who fed the boys

Sitting atop the chicken shed

Beside the field of cows

Deciding whose were whose

I remember banana and custard

We sprinkled sugar 

I remember my mum's arched eye

At a rare school friend in the house

He had a cup of tea into which 

Spoon after spoon of sugar fell

You see how they live the eye said

Who fed the chickens

Who fed the boys

You had the brown and white ones 

I had the black and white

What colour were the chickens?

I remember fruit cake

I remember baked apples

And as if the cows had got into our house

And grown hands

And chosen weapons 

I remember them fight like beasts

Crashing into walls screaming

She had a rolling pin

Then a frying pan

He had a knife against her throat

Who fed the chickens

Who fed the boys

I took your hand to a neighbour 

Who gave us orange juice and bid us go away

I remember crossing a field

You swinging  at the end of his arm

Me mute in her hand

We love you she said

But who fed the chickens

And who fed the boys

581 birds revolving on spikes

 The pigeons 

Made dead circles for

The man's gun

580

 With these bones

With these arms and legs

Withstanding

579

history

Like packaging words

We don't read

578 Three ways of talking (and thinking)

POWER SPEECH
Puts to death
Claims the very throne
Hears no one

DELUSIONAL SPEECH
invents worlds
Makes rules that make knots
Is lonely

CONSOLATION SPEECH
skeletons
Side by side talking
With their hearts

577 This body

 Our command

A leaf in the wind

Til night comes

Based on

fayuan  601-63

"This body without a self"

In the book "nuns of emptiness" by beata grant

576

 Waders fall

With Grace and song to

Winter beach

575

 Leaves in wind

Lift me into life

Flowing song

574

 This pulling

Apart is our life

Nothing stays

573 on the water

 You stay there

asking me how dark

can I live

572

 Your staring

Sea eyes asking me

Where are you?

571

 Ghosts above

Speak softly of death

Nails of night

570. humans

our desert

our vast wilderness

all we say

569. seekers

 be with god

be with all creatures

live in light

568. winter dog

a tight ball

he waits for covers

sighs his thanks

567 arms

back in ours

and we in his all

together

566 realisation 5/10/23

 1

dark spiders

Stole away my words

Left silence

This silence

Held no meaning nor

Hope just pain

Heart removed

All mechanical

Barely life

Unwinding 

Amidst the dying

Blind and mute

2

Waters edge

Dark land of shadows

And stillness

Here i walked

Careless of danger

Looking down

Then body

stumbled fell apart

An abyss

The dark land

A spiders web snare

Do or die

3

Bundle boat

Back upon waters

Under stars

Holding heart

In moonlight eyes wide

For lifes flow

Water wisps

The ribbons of sky

And green land

4

This rebirth 

is beyond the world

Beyond man

A lifes thread

Above and beyond

Undimmed light

565. storm

 a river

 falling to earth lost

in blindness

564 call

 comforters

light older than stars

beckons us.